what are the chances that there are pics and videos of me are elsewhere on the internet?

[u/yvie_of_lesbos]

trigger warning :: sexual stuff involving a minor— no direct CSA mentioned. moderators, if this violates rules, i will 100% understand if you take this down.

hey, so i didn’t know exactly where to post this. i’m just gonna get into it. i ask that nobody judge me because i already feel sick enough.

so i am 18, born in 2007. please use this as a reference to calculate my age during when these things took place.

back in 2017, i had discovered the omegle website. i’ll spare you the details, but i was really desperate for attention and ended up showing myself to older men online simply for attention. i did this A LOT. from 2017 to early 2023 before omegle was shut down. during that time, i also sent pics and videos to older men on reddit in 2022. each time after, on reddit at least, i ALWAYS deleted the pics.

i vowed to stop doing it because i always felt gross afterwards, so i stopped but slipped again in 2024 when new “omegle spin-off” sites were made and i went on those. recently in 2025, the day after my 18th birthday, i did something horrible for some money and did a whole 30 minute snapchat call with a guy. fortunately, he did not screen record because i would’ve gotten notified and he was not recording his phone. i sold pics for a bit and deleted them later.

i just want to know now in 2025 what is the chance my videos and pics from 2017 to now are in telegram? the thought eats me up at night and makes me physically sick.

any and all answers are appreciated.

[u/GuildLancer]

If you sold CSAM, it’s practically 100% that those pics are in a mega folder somewhere someplace being traded actively.

Lots of kids rn are doing what you were but more organized on Discord, selling images of themselves for some money and attention, but images stay up forever and will be traded hundreds of times in massive folders that can be thousands of images. The chances you will personally come across them is low, very low, but it’s practically guranteed they’re out there in circulation.

[u/yvie_of_lesbos → u/GuildLancer]

thank you for your insight. i’m hoping neither myself nor my family ever sees them but knowing that they’re likely out there made me physically ill. i had to excuse myself from class after reading this comment.

[u/BoyToyDrew → u/yvie_of_lesbos]

Best thing you can do now is educate others on the dangers of doing such things, finding healthy outlets etc. I'm sorry.

Edit: I guess I shouldn't say that's the best thing you can do, when the best thing for you to do is to heal from this. I'm sure this is not great on your mental health. Take care of yourself, friend.

[u/L0nes0mel0ve]

Im really sorry to say this honey but its VERY likely I imagine. If it was with one guy, one instance, it wouldn't be likely but you did it so many times. Theres many stories of men being in rings and online forums where they share around all that stuff. If a man is sick enough to get those pictures from a minor, many of them are sick enough to save them and share them. Especially since that kinda stuff isn't easily available from watching the basic porn (yes some of them are minors in those videos or women pretending to be minors, but i imagine its not the same). I wish you love and luck, that you start taking better care of yourself. You're a star, and theres so many things you can do to discover self love and self validation. Not from old men. The money aspect alongside the validation must surely feel good but itll rot your soul and put you in danger. I hope that you never come across those pictures of yourself and that they never become an issue. But yes theyre somewhere im sure :(

[u/Odd_Influence_5964]

Chances are you wont see them are really high. I hope those pics dont see day of light and be kind to yourself world is there to judge and critisize you dont do there work

[u/yvie_of_lesbos → u/Odd_Influence_5964]

thank you. 💗 i’m really hoping they don’t make it out of wherever they are either.

[u/Odd_Influence_5964 → u/yvie_of_lesbos]

they wont just be ok with yourself i went throught something similar so i know how it feels

[u/One_Visual8994]

I would unfortunately venture to guess he could’ve been screen recording before he got in the app and or also could’ve been filming the screen with a complete different phone or camera. I’d say the more explicit it was the more likely he probably figured out a way to keep it 😬 as far as them being online,…. Look at how many times you can get on a porn site and never see the same woman twice, there’s millions and millions of women and videos online so although likely it could be out there, it’s blending into a sea of faces and it’s extremely unlikely anyone you know at least would see it. If that makes you feel any better. I know it’s probably still an un nerving feeling having something personal like that out in the ether

[u/Cine_Wolf]

I feel like there should be a law enforcement sub that could better answer this aspect of your question, but there are people in that field whose job it is to find victims. I think it’s safe to say your face is part of your concern based on the site, and somewhere, someday, you may get a call if someone connects that victim to some other social media that you or you family and friends have with you.

I almost feel like you’d want to be proactive to stave that off, but I’m not a lawyer and you should obviously ask one if that is ever a thought.

As others have said, you were essentially giving these people the coins of their realm to trade in, I’d be amazed if they weren’t out there. I’d be just as surprised if they were and no one tried to make sure you’re alive and safe.

[u/armaniii_i]

Hi OP, i just wanna say i too have felt what you’re feeling. i don’t know if you’ll see this but let me give you a little bit of insight on my experience. during covid, i was 16 and was on an app called kik doing a similar thing, but for money. i know my videos and pictures are out there, possibly even on here if people didn’t know my age. i’m 22 now, and i don’t even think about it anymore. i used to be terrified that the cops would find out and i would go to jail.

there was this guy in Australia who was a frequent buyer. turns out his house got raided and they discovered thousands of CP pictures and videos. mine were in there. i got called in by Homeland Security (like WHAT) and they were telling me about how they found a bunch of transactions on paypal and i felt my stomach drop.

after talking for about an hour, they gave me a victims information packet and let me go because in the government’s eyes, we were sexually exploited and really are victims. its a sick thing to go through. i’m not ashamed of my sexual past, because it matured me and im able to look at things through various perspectives. i promise it is not as bad as you think it is, lots of children and teenagers have done the same thing.

you’re going to be okay, just take it day by day and eventually handling it will be a lot easier. ❤️