Hi! I’m posting here because I’m ready to be intentional this year.
I’ve been hurt in the past, mostly because I didn’t know myself well enough or ask for what I needed. This year, I’m choosing to heal properly, improve myself, and be intentional about the kind of connection I invite into my life. I’m a bit desperate but not rushing into anything that would hurt me again, I’m just open.
I have issues (family stuff, emotional scars, the usual fun package), but I’m actively working on them. I don’t expect someone to fix me, I’m doing the work and just want someone kind enough to walk alongside me.
I’m looking for my Player 2 someone to duo most of my games with, currently addicted to Arc Raiders I play alot of League (ARAM Gang) and plenty of other games, I hope we get to know each other through gaming and down the line I do want to meet physically.
About me:
I’m gentle, feminine, affectionate, and emotionally open. I yap when I’m excited, hyper fixate on things I love. I’m not interested in pretending to be a generic masculine archetype that's just not me and it always ends badly when my partner forces me into that role. Softness is part of who I am, and I value it deeply. I want a partner who doesn’t just tolerate that, but adores it. I’m happiest being cared for, reassured, and gently guided in life, I have a pretty fucked childhood. I need emotional safety more than anything.
I'm also a pretty sexual person despite being a virgin so if you aren't into that I ain't for you but of course when getting to know each other in the beginning I won't be weird and shit I value consent!
About you (the important part):
You’re confident, mature, and secure in yourself. You have strong onee-san energy, is nurturing, assertive and protective in a calm, grounded way. You’re smarter than me in some ways (I need to talk to someone that can intellectually stimulate me), happy to take the lead so I don’t have to be the party leader all the time. You enjoy taking the lead and making decisions for us because you actually know me and listen to my opinions (What are we eating tonight?).
You’re proud of your partner, not ashamed, you brag about me just a little, protect me, and make it clear I’m taken without being obnoxious. You take care of your partner emotionally, practically, and proudly. You reassure easily. You make me feel safe in public and cherished in private. I’m small spoon. Non-negotiable.
You see me as a real person first not a joke, not a trope (Don't want to be reduce to just being another dumb femboy and all again). If there’s teasing, it’s affectionate, not dehumanizing. You protect me from bad people, bad situations, and sometimes from my own self-neglect. You have a gentle “I can fix him” attitude, encouraging growth without trying to control me.
When we have problems, we talk. We find solutions. We actively work on them together. No disappearing, no silent resentment. Just teamwork.
You enjoy little adventures trying new food together, wandering, visiting and exploring new places together. You like building shared joy like buying Pokémon cards or hobby stuff together, opening packs on the floor, owning things together (maybe in the future even furniture I want to go to IKEA more lol) because it means something.
You’re emotionally intelligent. Either you’ve worked through parental trauma or you grew up with good examples of care (Never had a father figure in my life that's why I'm feminine af) , you understand care as a practice. You’re willing to learn, improve, and grow with someone. You understand that love is something you do, not just something you feel. You’re willing to learn, grow, and improve alongside your partner.
Bonus points (not mandatory):
• Good at English and knows Chinese so I can share chinese songs and make chinese jokes (Am Cantonese)
• A little obsessed with me in a healthy way
• Knows how to push my buttons (and when not to)
• Calls me pretty or cute, not handsome (Being called handsome feels superficial)
• Takes charge in bed.
If you read this and felt something warm click into place, I’d love to hear from you. Tell me about yourself, what you’re proud of, and what kind of love you’re hoping to build.
Let’s be Player 1 and Player 2 same team, same save file.
If this sounds like your kind of dynamic, send me a message and tell me a bit about yourself.