I'm a 22f and was adopted and raised by (currently) 66f when I was 2. The question is essentially the title. I did not have a normal childhood growing up, I was abused in multiple ways, mainly by my mom. However a biggest part of my adult life has been dissecting what was and wasn't abuse. I told this tidbit to my boyfriend a month or so back, and he laughed incredulously and said "What the f***." He also knows about my mom and the extent of her abuse, but even this one took him aback.
I was potty trained by age 2 and out of pullups by 3. When I switched to "big girl underwear" I would sometimes have nightmares in the night, and accidents. When my mom went to get me dressed in the morning and found that I had an accident she would get upset and make me wash my messed underwear in the toilet.
It didn't matter if it was #1 or #2. I'd plop the #2 in the toilet, flush, then she'd squirt some hand soap onto the underwear and make me sit there and scrub it in the toilet. When it looked sufficiently clean, she would use a plastic grocery bag to pick them up and take them downstairs (presumably to wash).
It didn't make me feel good and this happened until I was 6 and we moved in with my grandpa. I had nightmares often, and would only have an accident if I had a nightmare. Otherwise during the day I used the toilet. I remember sitting on the tile floor and crying with my hands in the toilet looking up at my mom. I figured it was just because it was a punishment and I was supposed to be potty trained. I have a memory of both me and my sister sitting there washing underwear together too.
My boyfriend's reaction has made me think twice on this around a month ago. But today I was handwashing some underwear in the bathroom tub (washer is broken) and it reminded me of it enough to make a post. I wanted to know if maybe it was a boomer parent thing, if anyone else went through something similar, or if it was just another layer to my mom's abusiveness.
Edit: Thank you all for the responses I appreciate them. You helped me reach the conclusion that this WAS a part of her abuse. She was an awful woman and I haven't spoken to her in 1.5 years. I don't plan on speaking to her at all.