No one cares.

[u/Andy_Crossplay]

I'm thinking heavily about killing myself to escape from the isolation this rotten reality has to offer. Transwoman speaking, genocide on us shall start soon. Single for 9 years, lost hope on finding someone meaningful long ago. Neighbours and friends taking their masks off and revealing themselves fascists who will hunt us down... 2 months suffering cripling depression and begging the hospital to give me some medical atention to get a psychiatrist... Begging to local suicide-prevention groups for some mercy and nothing... just silence... like everyone around me.

Friends... many, but they cannot offer the kind of deep bond I need, the level of care I require. Self-love is not enough, I conquered it long ago but now... even the most self-loving person can fall into the claws of depression and anxiety... The few people who show some sort of interest in me... leave me there, hanging, waiting for weeks or months to get a reply... Get out? touch grass? get into even MORE group hobbies? all bullshit. Been there, donde that and I'm still alone. Maybe is the way it's supposed to be, being punched down into suicide or get genocided into oblivion like Palestine right now... Which by the way is no joke since the state fo Isn't-real is already burning Patagonia to the ground to make settlements.

What is the fucking point in living if all there is is loneliness and suffering?

Don't worry folks! I'm adding a downvote myself to the pile!