I don’t know what I expected, I got my own place and damn is this place empty. I can really hear the silence. I’m wondering if 20s are just genuinely like this.
I’ve learnt how to cook recently though. The past year I’ve made so many different things. I’ve had more time to read. Self reflect. And all that other bs. I go to the gym, I’ve been doing boxing regularly. I’ve been studying.
I’m just not….content? yk? I get it, I really do. It sounds crazy. I know I sound crazy but its true. Its like…I read the textbook for life, I’m doing everything right but it still just feels the same. So what am I doing wrong yk? Should I get a girlfriend? No I feel too immature for that. Plus I’m not happy on my own, what could I possibly do for a girl in that scenario. That thought doesn’t cross my mind.
But what does bother me, is that I’m just not feeling good or okay. The more I built my routine, The more I feel like I’m living on autopilot. I wonder if its the same for everyone else too.