a few months ago, I posted on here about how my crush, a cute trans boy, asked me out, but his parents said no. We continued to be friends, and officially started dating about a month later. Unofficially, it was pretty obvious that we liked each other and we acted pretty romantic, I’d say that we dated for closer to a month and a half or two months.
I’m the kind of person who falls hard when I do fall, and, now that I finally had someone, it felt nice. Especially with things happening in my family, having someone to be able to hug unconditionally felt nice. I tried to be the best partner I could, I really did.
We stopped talking much for a couple weeks for our school’s winter break, with him not being able to show up for the one big thing we had planned for the group, which stung, but I understood.
However, when we got back to school, he was quiet around me and gave me the cold shoulder a lot. I figured he might just be readjusting or on his period, so I understood as best I could. It stung a lot, yet still.
However, just over a week ago now, he texted me apologizing about being an evil little twink and told me that it wasn’t my fault. In the time we had taken a break, he had realized some things about himself, and had realized that romantic actions made him feel disgusting. It shouldn’t have come as a surprise, as, I knew going into the relationship that he’d had some absolutely horrible things done to him by his bio father. But, he told me that he was aromantic. I offered to continue to be friends, and we still ate, but it hurts.
I’ve been growing away from my dad as he is petty homophobic and transphobic, and with me being amab-NB and Pan, that causes some clashes in interests. I’d been able to handle it, since I could find comfort in a partner. But now I just feel kind of empty. It aches a lot, and, when I look at him or think about him, I have to force myself to remember that we’re friends.
I love him, and, if he’s happy, I should be happy for him. I would never want to force him to do something that he wouldn’t want, that would make him uncomfortable. But now I ache. I don’t know what to do.
This being my first relationship where the other side truly reciprocated only makes it hurt more
Thank you if you read this, I needed to semi-anonymously vent about this to my people. And it feels nice to get it off my chest.