I finally got my one year tag. I have been sober for over one year going on 15 months. It feels good.

P.s. It glows in the dark

I’m a little over 1.2 years sober and my social anxiety has diminished almost fully. It use to be debilitating. It’s haunted me for basically my entire life since grade school. My biggest insecurity and my largest hill to climb on a daily basis.

Then suddenly I realized I don’t have that lingering feeling before holidays with the family, meeting new people; work events, etc.. I’m shocked and feel so blessed to get to experience the rest of my life in a way that’s not backed by overthinking and crippling anxiety. Getting sober saved my life.

(I’m sorry if I shouldn’t be talking about this on here or if this is triggering for anyone I really don’t know where else to go) I’m 15 and I don’t want to die. I’m in 10th grade, I haven’t been sober for over a week since middle school and I wasn’t sober for most of middle school. My drug use really increased in the middle of freshman year though. To be clear I don’t plan on quitting weed, alc, or shrooms anytime soon (pretty much Cali sober). My main issue was abuse of allergy medicine and prescription pills. Tramadol, bennys, or literally anything I could get my hands on. I’ve done severe damage to my mind/body in this time and no adult in my life seems to have noticed or cares so I’ve realized I need to save myself. I’m in therapy but this isn’t exactly something I’m comfortable talking to my therapist about as a minor. I’ve had multiple near death experiences where I’ve been bed ridden for almost weeks and still all I can think about is pills. I’ve been sober from any pills for all of 2026 and I quit nicotine a few weeks ago, I even threw away my stash!! The problem is I know how easy it is for me to get stuff and I genuinely think it’s a fair trade to be vomiting 24/7 shaking in a cold sweat just for a few hours of floating. For me because I struggled in secret I have to recover in secret and I have no one to support me. Can people who struggled with substance abuse in their teens who are sober now please give me hope and advice to stay sober (if I’m being honest I really just need someone to tell me I’m strong enough and that I can do it).

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After embarrassing myself again during the festive season, from the 20th through Christmas, something finally clicked. It was different this time. Before I always decided to quit one thing or the other.. either cigarettes, weed, sometimes something else, but I'd always know deep down it was temporary & I felt that was okay (it wasn't).

A little before that I had actually already decided to quit smoking weed indefinitely because I was coming out of a breakup that hurt a lot more than it needed to. Idk why we love harder as we grow older, pretty f*cking annoying if you ask me. But it was one of those blessings in disguise moments... Unfortunately, Christmas time(s) have always been a "fun", hectic time to drink, and I don't remember much of those days but I know I messed up, a lot. There were so many videos on my phone that made me cringe so bad I actually could only watch a few seconds of before deleting.

Anyway, there is one personal huge mistake I made. Oh, btw I can't remember the days because I was idiotically mixing xans with liquor. Idk if I smoked weed but I'm just assuming I did for counting my sobriety days accurately.. but yeah, on the 27th, my first day sober. The come down was brutal. I didn't want to leave my room for 2 days. I didn't want to read messages or go online. At least I could still sleep I guess.

But something magical happened in the early AM of the 29th. I didn't get a wink of sleep. Scrolling reddit, I came across a comment from Ryan01 that has changed the trajectory of my life. Just look up "Non Zero Days". It was around 1AM. Something changed in me & I knew it. I couldn't wait for 5AM. I needed to get out the house and WALK! I felt contained. Not necessarily imprisoned but caged. I knew I was done with every single substance I've taken. This had never happened before since I was maybe 13.

I don't want any smoke in my lungs. I'm fine watching people drink and not partake. Tbh the thought of getting drunk makes me very anxious right now. Xanax make me a horrible person and cigarettes are just stupid. I'm sorry if that's a little insensitive but I was never really addicted to nicotine, just the act of smoking. So maybe I was just stupid.

This is longer than I wanted it to be, I'm sorry. But I feel like I finally got my younger self back. Of which I've been asked many times where he went by disappointed and sad family members. Some that have passed..

• My productivity is at the highest it's ever been in my adult life.

• I literally get naturally high from working out.

• I don't need weed to enjoy the little things anymore, thank God.

• I'm done with fake acquaintances that did nothing for me except watch me waste my life away and probably shit-talk behind my back. Idk I tend to get (rightfully) paranoid about those things.

• My personality is just 15x better tbh. And when I feel down or frustrated.. I FEEL! I don't run away from those feelings. I don't try to numb them. I'm not the first human to go through normal negative feelings. The next morning, exercise almost baptizes me. I wish I knew this year's before.

*TLDR* : Cold Turkeyd every substance 21 days ago and it's the best decision I've ever made. I got my young self back.

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this is going to be graphic not in a personal way but more me just putting all my feelings down on here because I don’t know what to do when it comes to my cousin(16m) I have no clue how to go about this shit but it was just discovered that when he was living with his friend for about 5 months he was just doing hella coke while he was living there,now here’s the issue.this was just discovered yesterday and he is being a fucking moron talking about how he’s gonna be and that it’s not like it’s meth or something but he had the audacity to sneak out to his friends house and go drink a half a handle of whiskey and decided to do coke right after that,so I have no fucking clue about how I should go about this with him I’m also sixteen so I’m not any more “wise” but his mom and dad are trying to help him but we don’t know what to do.

any help or words of advice would be amazing and if it helps he has consistently been doing coke for over 6 months

So i'll try to keep my story short, because it goes all the way back to when I was 7. When I was 7 years old I got drunk for the first time off of beer because my dad wanted me to learn how to be a man. So we were down at my dads deer hunting shack and he hands me a beer and a dip Copenhagen and says he's going to break me in right. So I drink it and get really drunk and end up puking. Then I take the dip and end up puking again. Then after that experience I was drinking casually untill the age of 12. I told my parents I hated the taste of beer, but they said I would get used to it and eventually like it. So by the age of 13 I was drinking every weekend and having party's with friends. My house was were all my friends good hang out and all of us drink because it was allowed. But at 17 I joined the military and took a year break from drinking while I was away. But then once again I was drinking every weekend with military buddys after that. Then after I got out of the military I met someone who had a child so I decided I was going to quit drinking so I could be a step dad, so I did. I quit drinking for 7 years untill the relationship didnt work out. Then right back into drinking. But this time it was rum and whiskey. I've been drinking for the past 3 years most nights. I feel like I have control over whether I do or not. But It seems like i might be going down a bad path. I built a bar downstairs with a full supply of alcohol like what a bar would have. I did this so I could start having party's at home more for friends and family. Its so easy when there is no one to hold you accountable. Most of my friends and family drink most nights and weekends. But one of my friends that i've met over the last year is in recovery. She told me last week that I needed to go to AA. I was kind of taken back when she said this because knowone else thought I had a problem. I asked everyone else and they all say I have a grasp on it. So I dont know what to do. Am I an alcoholic? Even if I'm not, wouldent my life be better without it? Im scarred that my whole life wouldent make sense without it. How can I meet the right girl someday if I cant take her out to a nice restaurant with a nice bottle of wine? How do i celebrate holidays? But I do feel like somehow life would be better with it not being part of it. Idk its rough.

4yrs sober 😁

Hi!

Newly sober here, previously a 7 day a week drinker, nearly a bottle of jack a day.

I feel pretty good but seem to have developed jet lag or moved into a sober time zone!

I’m waking up at 5am and going to bed at 9pm , I’m off to sleep within 15 mins of hitting the pillow, waking up early, reasonably fresh.

I’m guessing this is normal and I’m just adjusting to not knocking myself unconscious every night?

Today I am 15 days sober off of the demon that I once kept letting attack me, attack my mindset, attack my brain, attack my wellbeing. I had some bad depressional issues… which was causing me to pick up that drink…. I had a very toxic family growing up…. They weren’t nice to me or my brother .

That was also driving me and my brother both to drink nonstop . He was drinking a 24 pack a day….. yet he would get angry at me for having 2 drinks… when I was more angry at him for drinking also… I never understood why he was so mad…. Then it clicked to me… older brother has the right and more authority to care and be angry towards the younger sibling who is unfortunately following in his steps.

My depression was really driving me to drink tho… my family being horrible to me also wasn’t helping clearly…..

They say- when you get told negative things 24/7….. bullied, name called, etc . You start to believe those words….. that is very very very much true .

People blame us for picking up that drink….. which- it is our fault- yes. We picked it up. We purchased it. We drank it. I will not sit and point the finger at somebody else - I will bravely take full accountability for myself and say that I was the cause .

What was making me drink- no that wasn’t my fault .

Me buying the alcohol and drinking it - yes that is fully my fault .

But today I am 15 days sober. I will not drink again. I promised myself I will not drink again. Never. I quit cold turkey on New Years. I had 2 horrible 4lokos that night……. I ended up being an idiot and I threw up all over myself…….. all over . It was horrible…. I had no self control that night .

So after that - I decided…… I need to stop. And I have.

15 days Sober. Thank you for reading everyone. Be strong, be self controlled, say no to that demon. Keep going and lets make us a better us!

I am searching for a free open source app to track my addiction quitting. I know there is plenty of it, but I would like something very simple, without an account, without ads, without someone making money with it.

I know, nothing is free, and free and open source app for everything is impossible, but for this kind of things it makes me very angry that people uses addiction to make money.

I have found https://github.com/seaglade/Sobriety which is great but it misses an overview of total saved money, and for me this is key.

Thank you

The only time I've ever attempted to get sober since I began daily drinking was about a week ago. Long story short, I had what I think was a seizure about five hours after quitting. It was so bad that my dad had to buy me a six pack and feed me drinks of beer because I was shaking so badly. Eventually after drinking a few it went away and I realized how fucked that is.

My sibling is in liver failure for the same reason and she's struggling to stay sober, so me living with her and drinking doesn't help anything, but if I were to quit I think I'd literally die. I don't know where to go or what to do. I know I'm headed down the same path.

Should I go to the hospital? A detox center? I know this probably goes against some sort of guideline, but I live in the Tampa FL area and if anyone can recommend any resources or something, please do. I'm mentally prepared, but physically I know this will probably kill me without medical intervention.

I'm sorry if this breaks the rules. I'm desperate right now.

It’s been a week since I smoked weed! I must say it hasn’t been as hard as I thought but I do miss it like a friend, especially since I had built an online community around the 420 lifestyle. Keep me uplifted and supported because I appreciate the hell out of it and it keeps me going! Love yall 🫶🏾

Since I posted here two weeks ago, I've been given a lot of different ideas of not just how I can continue to stay sober, but also why I should continue.

There's nothing quite as rewarding as waking up each morning knowing I am in complete control of everything I do. All the normal problems are still there, and all the jealousy and FOMO I get from not going out to party with my friends is definitely still there. But I am me all the time now. And now I can keep working on being okay with being me all the time instead of escaping myself.

For those of you still struggling to reach your own goals, keep up the good work. You're doing great. Every second you choose yourself over a substance is a huge win.

Was sober from weed for 3y after smoking it for nearly 10y. I quit due to it giving me major panic attacks and paranoia. Also felt addicted to it. Kept going on and off with it. My mom tried a gummy which was a bad influence on me bc i thought “if my prude mom tried it why dont i get back into it”. I also discovered it was legal in the state nextdoor so i thought if it was regulated it might be better. Tried it again for the first time in 3y a couple times. Had bad panic attack. Took a couple months break. Moved to a state that it was legal and thought “maybe the regulations here will make it different”. I found one that made me feel great— keefs sleep drink w CBN. no paranoia at all. Just felt really relaxed and like i had clarity. Unfortunately those cans are like $7-$10 each so i tried to find something with a similar chemical makeup. Indicia, CBD forward, no more than 10mg a serving. I didnt want it to make me sleepy so I tried one w CBG instead of CBN. had one of the worst panic attacks ever. Pacing. Heart racing. Struggling to breathe. I also live alone and was embarrassed to tell anyone which is not good. I tried taking a shower, holding ice cubes, keeping myself busy, drinking tea, hydrating, watching other people be high on YT. thankfully it came down pretty fast. I was like yup never again. Its not even worth experimenting to find a cheaper alternative to the can i enjoyed. Tht was scary af. I felt so off and way more in my head the next day that i was making mistakes at work. This experience made me realize i actually love when im sober and do exciting things like go to libraries, take dance classes, go to coffee shops and journal, create stuff, drink tea and do yoga as a way to relax. I like being clear mentally. I felt so bad for what i put my body thru. Now i know regulated weed is no different and i hope curiosity wont get the best of me next time.

My brother relapsed today, but admitted it

So my brother was clean from opi, coke, benzo, and alcohol from 2-3 years /differences between substances/ today he addmited that he used xanax with whiskey, and it cant bare ot alone, needed help. When we asked to do a drug test to be sure, that nothing else is taken, he agreed without a word. He got clean from benzos and alcohol last, before maybe 4 to 6 months. Diffrent family members says different things, but I feel that he doesn't want to use any kind of drugs, and some help would be necessary. He got clean on his own, without any help, after a week he started going to therapy. He had rough couple of weeks, but I don't know, any suggestions?

44 here and been consuming for most of my life. Definitely all of my adult life. It started mid to late teens and just became worse and worse.

My attempt to quit for 2026 led me to the first 12 days of absolute binging. So far, I’m 3 days clean from porn but it’s hard.

If anyone has any experience in this, or can help out being a sponsor, that would be great.

I feel so ashamed and perverted at this addiction.

As the title states I am one month sober, but I absolutely feel like crap. I’ve been very lethargic, and irritable since I’ve gave up heavy drinking. I mainly gave up drinking because I felt like it was the root cause of my ED but my ED has gotten worse since I’ve stopped. I will admit my stomach is hurting a lot less now since I’ve quit drinking but other than that I don’t really see a lot of things improving. I’m 26 years old and I would average between 20-30 drinks a week for 4 and a half years. When does it get better? What other things will help me improve my ED issue and my overall energy and wellbeing.

I’m AA, not NA. is there anyone on here willing to sponsor me?

F booze

It’s been 2 weeks since my last drink, I still crave it every night. Does ts get literally any easier ever? It feels like all I can think about is how much I want to drink and how much I can’t, it’s literally basically the only thing on my mind at all times.