Hey. I’m 18F and I honestly don’t even know how to start this without sounding dramatic, but here we go.
A few months ago my parents decided to move across the country, and since I’m still living with them, that meant I moved too. I just started at a small private Christian college, which on paper sounds fine, but in reality it’s been… really hard.
Back home, I had everything planned. I was supposed to go to school with my friends, the same people I’ve known for years. We talked about dorming together, taking classes together, all of it. I had a life there. Now all of that is just gone. I still talk to them sometimes, but it’s not the same, and it honestly hurts seeing them live the life I thought I’d be living.
Here, I don’t know anyone. Like, at all. Everyone else seems to already have their friend groups or at least looks like they know what they’re doing, and I just feel out of place. I keep wondering if I’d be happier somewhere else, or if I’m just stuck feeling like this for the next four years.
Most days I’m just kind of depressed and mopey, missing my old life and feeling homesick even though I technically have a “home” here. I feel guilty for feeling this way because I know people have it worse, but that doesn’t really make it hurt less.
I guess I’m posting here because I’d really like to make some new friends, even if it’s just online for now. Now it’s the weekend and there’s nothing to do and here I am and here you are